Choices are never easy ….
Choices
Published by D. Kay Creations
A wise person once said to me first focus on who you are then on what you are. Who I am is a man struggling in a world that seems against me. I love women, I enjoy their scent, form and feel of their skin. I enjoy female company, emotions, thoughts and most especially I miss having one special lady to call mine. I feel things deeply and need a mate not a casual partner. I want to fall in love and be committed and cannot do the whole 'one-night-stand' thing that most other men can do. I like romance and the gentle exploration of mind and emotion of each other. I like seeing how much I can make you feel, how far can we go and what are our boundaries and limits are to push through and past. I want to explore and take each step with reverence and care with someone who trusts and loves me. I am a true believer in love and beauty within, they have not driven that from me yet. Now the 'what I am' - I am a middle aged white guy living in South Africa. I live with my parents. I rarely drink but I do smoke much more than I should do. I have held down a steady boring job for the last 16 years so know how to commit to the 'for better or worse' side of things. I am divorced, 8 years now, and a father of 2 children, daughter 14 and son 11. Ex-wife and I are not on very good terms, she has custody and I have full visitation which doesn't happen often as I would like and I miss them terribly. I feel I would be a good gentle Father to my children if I was allowed. My ex-wife was going to be 'forever' and the 'love of my life' but it didn't work out that way. If you are, like me, you will understand how this messes you up for a while. I have scuba dived and studied many ancient religions and old cults. I did well at school and like to explore a variety of different subjects since. From nutrition, graphic design and creative writing to Paganism, Egyptian history and the darker side of things. I am into movies, series and gaming. I dabble a bit in writing, dream of getting published one day and Photoshopping, astrology and chainmaille making. I have had several online relationships that ended painfully and some very nastily and for some strange up reason I still believe in love. Since I am a Introvert and moving around while in primary school, I find it ... difficult opening up to people and making real friends, so this is seriously difficult for me. I am sarcastic at times, sort of twisted dirty humour, it gets me into a lot of trouble, if saying the wrong thing to the wrong person and the wrong time was a skill, I have just about mastered that and have got several scars both internal and external over this. If you think a comment I make somewhere could not be serious, it probably wasn't. I am looking for Love, a deep lifetime committed, till death do us part, love … I am told that it doesn't exist any more, please prove me wrong. View all posts by D. Kay Creations
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